7th May 2008

Day off for me, and bogging in bed while boyfriend heads for a shower.

I'm a bad girlfriend, don't know what gets into me at times, but I don't half do my best to push Alan away sometimes.

The weekend saw us at conference staying in seperate hostels. This is because Alan booked before he knew me and I got in on the only package I could. Friday night got drunk, dumped him, told him he was single, yelled at him, got off the bus and spent 45 mins on the phone crying to him. (took 35mins for me to walk 5 mins up the path to my hostel)

By saturday I was slightly more sheepish. Its ok, he still loves me. God knows why. Sunday was spent togeather, monday night I worked, came home after finishing work at 1pm. Al had rotary so could't stay. He came home at about 10.40pm and I suddenly started mentally pushing him away. My head screamed not too.

Guess I'm just upset. A change in shift pattens means I'll only see him 3 full days a month. It sucks. I find that hard, seperation hard. And he'll be working till 1am sometimes. Why is it, I get involoved with people and all of a sudden life throws a curve ball. Something pushes me away? Not them, but changes in life/work/stuff.

Anyway. After trying to explain whats happening to me to Alan (haha!) I'm still not convinced he understands fully. I can't explain whats happening in me, I don't get it either half the time. I was looking over this blog today (as was Alan) and I only write when this go wrong these days. Was odd reading about the past and things. Could see the parts where Mark and I fell apart, where I started seeing Struan, where that fell apart too.

I never want to loss Alan, he means the world to me. Don't know what I'd do if I lost him.

Wonder if I should start seeing a councelloer again? Lol, poor person wouldn't know what hit them!

Anyway breakfast in bed so I better go

Pippa xx

Train blog

16^th October 2007

I'm heading into work on a very VERY packed train. I'm sat on the floor as I can't get to a seat. Am really knackered at the moment. The weekends just aren't long enough, and considering all I do for most of Sunday morning is sleep anyway, its still not enough.

This weekend I had to work Saturday. It was ok, steady in places but busy consult wise. Al drove me into work in the morning and picked me up in the evening as there were train issues (and he wanted to see me) On sunday we saw Ratatooi in the cinema. Very enjoyable. After we went for a walk by the river, went to see a lock, watch the boats, see the squirrels on an island...it was very nice and peaceful. Went back to his for dinner before he reminded me he was on early turn this week so I wouldn't be able to stay till Monday. *Sigh* weekends are not long enough.

Bacardi's up and down health wise. He seems fine on the outside, but his inside's just can't decide. Matt wants me to gain “samples” but thats always easier said than done!

It's Al's birthday next weekend. He told me what he wanted, so I got it for him. Nice and simple! Just need to find a card.....

At the weekend its another busy one. Got Andy's gig in oxford friday night, the Wallingford Retro Party saturday night and sunday will be another rest-ish day. Next week it's Fi's virgin vie party wednesday, meeting thursday, halloween party friday, poss another halloween party sat(?) and another rest-ish sunday!!! Can't believe its nearly the end of the month already! This year is JUST flying by!!

Anyway, best go as nearly in London (I think) and sitting on the floor is NOT comfortable!!!

Laters peeps

Pippa xx

Date 12^th September 2007 – 9.30am

Had CPD at head office last night, a long but interesting lecture on oral tumours in the dog.

Have had a busy couple of days at work, hoping I might be able to get some paperwork done for a change today (as long as the other girls help out Matt more)

At some point I'll get around to sorting this space out, its become a bit neglected since I found facebook (which has reached a historic point on my wall, 1000 messages has been breached! How fantastic is that! Lol!)

Got tomorrow off (thursday) which will be nice. Might even try and sleep in, and do a spot of room cleaning. *Gasp*

Don't looked too shocked! Its also the 2^nd thursday of the month, so that means Rotaract meeting! Should really be writing the website report on Bournmouth trip, but not got around to it! I'm so bad at this. Will do it tonight or tomorrow, have to look and see how its usually done anyway as I have no idea what to write!

Another thing I need to do is right a report for the company newsletter on the medivet funday. Uncle Erwin asked me to as the reporter from the south west!

The cats are fine, Bacardi is doing so much better now after the scare he gave me after bank holiday monday. He was so ill, I thought I might lose him. Even Matt and Jan weren't happy when they saw him. Still, he seems ok, and we have no idea what was wrong with him. All results came back inconclusive, and he was getting better so it wasn't worth doing any more. I checked out my ledger on the computer, I've spent £11,000 in 4 yrs on these 2 trouble makers and I know that £4000 of that was on bacardi this year! He's not been a very well kitty at all.

Now they are causing havoc at home, raiding the kitchen, knocking off the food from the top of the fridge. Bubble has also discovered the butter on the kitchen side :os its now kept in a dish with a lid, but she can be very naughty when she wants. I don't really know whats gotten into her to be honest. Or him. They were never normally this bad.

Just heading into London Marylebone, so I'll have to end this here!

Later days

Pippa xx 

Date ; 4^th September 2007

Well, you can see my train blogs didn't really work all that well to begin with! Things have been a little crazy for me lately. Been out and about with my friends, camping was brill! Had so much fun, made more new friends, FANTASTIC!

Started a new relationship, working hard, getting out, helping friends move, doing charity stuff, my life is pretty packed!

Am tired today, in more ways than one. Went to bed at about 11.30pm last night (which is early for me) Didn't sleep all that well, didn't want to get up, don't have any energy for anything.

I want out.

Am going to try for a quick nap now before we hit London and I get 500,000 issues with people!

4^th Sept. PM

On the way home, this were going ok, I'm tired, and on auto pilot. BAD! Just got on train from Victoria BACK to clapham so I can get to the only tube line running that gets me close to home. Jubilee line.

I hate this stike. They have no idea what they are striking about.

Grrrrrrrrr

My trip home is rubbish!!!!

Pippa grrrrrrrrrr @ RMT and Bob Crow

This time, I'm blogging while on the train home! Someone asked me today how I do this every day. It hasn't killed me as yet, spending 4 hours a day on the train/tube. I find it gives me the time to type on here!

Today was a pretty standard day. Had head office down doing interviews for the receptionist job in the clini. Not sure what happened, but only one person turned up! Have a meeting at rotoract this evening (which is where I am heading now) and am hoping Jon remembers to come this time! Tomorrow, the family abandon me and the cats for the weekend :(

The following weekend, Dad's off to the rockingbeerfest, and his borrowing my tent for it!

Weekend after that.....I'm camping in Banbury, I can't wait! I'm soooooo excited! Not been camping for nearly 2 yrs? Went to the new forest with mark for a short weekend break to get away from it all. I need this time off to allow myself to chill out, get away from it all. Got a busy weekend acctually next weekend, friday sees me going to 2 parties, sat I'm working with the chance of going out in the evening, sunday off to the beach with the girls.

One of my old clients came in today to say hi. She asked how I was and things which was nice. No ops today, or tomorrow. Boring! At least I should be able to sort out a couple of claim forms, and finish sorting downstairs out before Matt gets back into work on Monday!

Not really got much else to blog about. Life is a bit boring to be quite frank. I need a bit of excitement to happen. *sigh*

Trying to get hold of my friends for a chat is impossible. 4^th time I've rung and left a message. Don't know whats going on and why she is avoiding my calls. Can't think of any way I could have pissed her off.....

Anyway. Will save this for now and kill more time by playing spider solitare (the only thing these laptops were made for!)

Pippa xx  

Have decided to start writing these blogs as I travel to and from work, thus allowing me to “coppy and paste” my life onto my web space! Much more likely to update it this way!

Am totally addicted to facebook at the moment, and this is where I'm often found, throwing virtual sheep, poking, graffitting on walls and nattering away to my friends, old and new!

Work has been busy, mostly tiding up the basements and things. All the paperwork from downstairs has now gone to be sorted. Hope they can salvage it! Matts got a few days off, and I have a few things to do. Mostly boring things, paper pushing.

Hoping that Lisa's portfolio is now done and dusted. She'll be half way to being qualified! Need to start on her NVQ3 stuff ASAP, sorting out questions, cases etc so as soon as she gets the all clear to start, it'll be go go go!

Guess at some point I'll have to train to be an assesor, that'll be fun. I struggled helping Matt with his! Mind, it'll look good on my CV and will help if I ever want to get another job.

Have decided that this long commute isn't a bad thing. I do tend to drag my poor laptop with me every day, and can sit on the train doing work.

Been having a busy social life too, went to see The Simpsons movie, VERY funny!And been to Bournmouth beach! Lovely sunny day, good time with my friends from Rotoract, and I won a Pingo in the arcade! All I had to do was wack a load of objects on a touch sensative screen......not sure if it'll ever work again mind! Played crazy golf, and spent time running on the beach like a loon in the sea. Was good as the others were sunbathing meaning I was left by myself. Great thinking time really. Had pizza hut in the evening before heading home. Got home just before midnight!

At least the weather is being nice, hope it holds like this for a while (but not too hot!). The family are abandoning me for the weekend, off to the Festival of History, the following weekend Dad's off to his Beer feast, and the weekend after that (bank holiday) I'm camping!

I can't wait! Got a costume ordered and everything! Heehee, will take loads of pictures to show everyone. Should be a laugh. Must test my tent and put it up (so I don't look like an idiot on the day) however, I'll be late there, have to finish at work. Am going to request an early and leave at 5.30pm, should get there before dark :s

Half way though the week at last, just find myself living for the weekends at the moment. My next lot of holiday isn't till november (booked 2 weeks off) as hoping to get my room sorted maybe. Would love to have my own bigger space with more room at breath! Right next to the front door means I can just fall straight into bed!

I'm off now, getting into marylebone, bye!