I go in for more dental surgery later. Although I've done all this before, I find myself sick with worry. I hope they agree to gas medown again, I'm worried about waking up and being called 'stupid', or 'pathetic' like last time. I find it all so stress making. And Whats Al going to think? He's asleep in the bedroom, I can't wake him. Poor guy, I've been rather moody and more stressful of late. Travelling, shifts (both his and mine), other peoples relationships are all causeing me problems. So many of my friends, friends friends and clients are breaking up at the mo, I stress that I'll be next. Last week (and for most of this week) it has pretty much eaten me inside. I thought I was going to be single again, for no real reason. Had a big chat the other evening, and I know we are fine and stable (well, Alan is anyway!) I explained why I'm stressed out, he understands (i think better tha he did)

I know he loves me, and he knows I love him, and we don't want to give each other up.

Am having big thinks about other aspects of my life mind, and am hoping some change will happen to ease things a bit. If change won't happen for me, I might have to change it myself.

Still. I'm awake. I miss my mum and dad, and the cats. I could do with a hug, but really can't wake Al.

 

*sigh*

 

Should (and could) be doing some work suff, but I left my laptop at work. I am an idiot sometimes!