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May 12 Random day off Had a day off today. Can't see why, as not owed one, but took the day to enjoy the sunshine (after waving Al off to work on his train) I appear to have some form of colour on me already after the weekend, of which sunday was spent sunning ourselves in Black Park and in his parents garden. Saturday (yes, going backwards here) was spent mostly sleeping till mid-day, popping home to see parents, drop off gifts, yell at dog to shut up, see one cat who won't talk to me and the other that hides in the dining room. Then we went for a bbq. Was Al's ex's birthday. First time I've met her, and I appear to have her approvel (never a bad thing) They've stayed friends after breaking up which I think is rather nice. Becky is in fact, a very nice person and I think she's a laugh. We sat upstairs chatting for a while (just about stuff, al and how we met). I think the only thing thats shocked her is I don't drink wine or eat spicy food, both these that Al loves! I say i'd always have a korma, and I drink Asti, so we're fine. Last wednesday I went to the hospital, for me pre-dental op check up. Yes, last year it was nine, this year its a further 5. Date booked already for the 6th June......talk about fast! Alan's already trying to book the day off (although with several other people off, it could be tricky) and is insisting on coming with. I love the fact they they state I can't go on public transport after surgery, although I don't know why. Last time I did, and thats coz a taxi home would have been too expensive. Not sure if Al'll insist on driving after reading the info booklet I got (this time I got everything I should have) but I'm not fussed. I was fine last time, and I had a cornish pasty straight after!! No soup for me! Anyway, Al's due home in a sec, so I better get beer ready! xxxx May 07 More ramberlings from the pathetic7th May 2008
Day off for me, and bogging in bed while boyfriend heads for a shower. I'm a bad girlfriend, don't know what gets into me at times, but I don't half do my best to push Alan away sometimes. The weekend saw us at conference staying in seperate hostels. This is because Alan booked before he knew me and I got in on the only package I could. Friday night got drunk, dumped him, told him he was single, yelled at him, got off the bus and spent 45 mins on the phone crying to him. (took 35mins for me to walk 5 mins up the path to my hostel) By saturday I was slightly more sheepish. Its ok, he still loves me. God knows why. Sunday was spent togeather, monday night I worked, came home after finishing work at 1pm. Al had rotary so could't stay. He came home at about 10.40pm and I suddenly started mentally pushing him away. My head screamed not too. Guess I'm just upset. A change in shift pattens means I'll only see him 3 full days a month. It sucks. I find that hard, seperation hard. And he'll be working till 1am sometimes. Why is it, I get involoved with people and all of a sudden life throws a curve ball. Something pushes me away? Not them, but changes in life/work/stuff. Anyway. After trying to explain whats happening to me to Alan (haha!) I'm still not convinced he understands fully. I can't explain whats happening in me, I don't get it either half the time. I was looking over this blog today (as was Alan) and I only write when this go wrong these days. Was odd reading about the past and things. Could see the parts where Mark and I fell apart, where I started seeing Struan, where that fell apart too. I never want to loss Alan, he means the world to me. Don't know what I'd do if I lost him. Wonder if I should start seeing a councelloer again? Lol, poor person wouldn't know what hit them!
Anyway breakfast in bed so I better go
Pippa xx |
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